my stomach types this, blandly

so people are very much alike. and people are very much unlike, too.

there are these people that forget to eat. food is boring or something. i also have noticed that a lot of these people don't have very exotic tastes, either. ethnic food scares them. spicy is always mild. everything is covered in run-of-the-mill cheese. lots of fry. lots of salt.

i think food is the best thing ever. i could eat all day long. all kinds of food. everything. there is little i do not like (strangely, cheesecake is not that great to me). i eat socially, alone, out of boredom, while watching movies, while reading, walking, driving, all the goddamn time. the simple act of chewing is just so fucking satisfying. i eat until i'm full, overfull, sick to my stomach. keep eating. everything taste so, so Good.

part oral fixation. part nervous tick. part gluttony. part habit. i have a very difficult time no doing it. i make a terrible anorexic.

but the real shitty end of this stick is that i have virtually no metabolism. i'm pretty much never hungry. part of this is because i eat so often. but even when there's some situation that arises where i haven't eaten all day, i'm not actually hungry.

is it the amount of coffee i consume? alcohol? smoking? all these things debilitate hunger and screw up energy levels. yes. ok.
is it that i have an extreme sugar craving? one that spands from simple to complex sugars? candy, sweet lattes, ice cream, potatoes, and above all Bread. i could eat loaves of bread every day. nothing tastes better. nothing.
oh yeah, and i don't really exercise. that's true, too. i have to get around on foot or bike, which keeps me from being comepletely imobile, but that's hardly enough.
and i surround myself with genetic wonders of food processing. regular dumpsters for food, my friends are, and not much to show for it. my boyfriend EATS NO FRUIT OR VEGETABLES. at all. none. not even potatoes. not even berries. no nuts or beans. it all makes him ill. so, macaroni and cheese with hot dogs. pizza. ramen. ravioli. while watching movies or playing video games. yet, physique-wise, he's a veritable vegan athlete. fuck.

everyone's been bringing their homeless trick-or-treat candy into work. tootsie rolls abound. i have a can of black bean soup. health. green tea. am i hungry? no. i almost got to be hungry two nights ago, but i went to the store, and realized i wasn't anymore.